As the just discovered lump in my throat grew, JESUS told me it was cancer and for me to just trust Him. I went to the doctor in March of 1997. After surgery, I was given the official diagnosis. It had advanced to my lymph nodes and was fast growing.
I went straight to my instruction book, the BIBLE, to see how to handle this as I had never had to deal with anything like this before. The Bible said for me to call for the elders of the church to pray. This, I did. Jesus whispered “Just trust me.” This I did.
As my treatments began, I drew closer to Jesus for comfort. His precious Word was like a life raft. The words were strength to me and I found shelter under His wings of peace. He gave me a peace that passeth all understanding – Isaiah 26:3, “Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in Thee.”
One day while sitting in the waiting room of the cancer center waiting for a radiation treatment, I needed some reassurance from my friend Jesus. I brushed through the magazines on the table beside me looking for a Gideon Bible. “Surely there must be one”, I thought to myself. You see, Jesus talks to me through His Word. Sure enough, there it was. As I opened the Bible, it came alive and warmed my whole body, mind and soul, even before I read a word. Blessed assurance flooded my soul as my Savior filed me with His presence. I read a Psalms and Jesus whispered “Fear Not.” I was now ready to go forward again.
Just like He promised in His Word, He is the very present help in the time of trouble. I gave Him my heavy load and He took it from me. He comforted me through cards and letters from His people. He talked to me through the Bible. He sent me messages through His preachers. He spoke to me through songs, birds, flowers, stars, the moon and clouds. He used the arms of my friends and family to hold me. He put me on the hearts of my church family and they prayed. He filled me with His presence. He woke me sometimes with Scriptures racing across my mind – such as: “Call on me in the day of trouble: I WILL deliver thee.” Psalms 50:15 and “Fear not: for I have redeemed thee, I have called thee by thy name; thy art mine.”
Jesus took my fear and replaced it with peace like I have never known. He gave me strength to attend church and sing through 35 radiation treatments. I do not know if I am free of cancer but I do now know for sure, through experience, that His grace is sufficient. No matter what the future holds for me, I will never be alone. There is nothing going to happen to me except that which Jesus will either allow or order. He has all power in Heaven and on earth and He loves me. This I know!! He died for me to prove it.
I guess Psalms 59:16 says it best for me. “But I will sing of thy power; yea I will sing aloud of thy mercy in the morning; for Thou hast been my defense and refuge in the day of my trouble.” I can trust Jesus!!
Thank You Jesus!!
*** 12 years later – Host of radio / television talk show “Jesus Talk Live”